Yesterday I had a routine medical procedure. Today I’m still recovering, because that’s what those of with a chronic illness do. We need a little extra time, a little extra love. In the spirit of no longer pretending I’m giving you all something I wrote a while ago that describes my last 24 hours pretty well. The following was previously posted on migraine.com. It is an attempt to describe what waking up with a migraine day in and day out is like.
She awakens to the familiar site of static. Some days are easier to tune into than others, and she knows this one will not be easy. Her ears buzz with the sounds of life carrying on at too high a frequency.
The pain starts at the base of her skull, and makes it’s way out through her body like a vine. It makes her stomach lurch and her palms sweat. She places her head in her hands and tries hard to find her center; but a place without the static will not come. She resorts to pressing hard against, then slapping her head, as if she were a broken piece of technology. Momentary Relief! Like a flicker on the radio, and then pain circles in again, taking it’s hostage.
She retreats to her bed; her prison; her palace. It is the only place she is safe while the world spins just outside it’s bounds. Guilt floods her body and mind as she surrenders, another day lost, another commitment she failed to meet. She swallows it with a glass of water and her medication and waits for the static to subside.